Written by Jade Hayek
Stop crying please, it’s making my heart drip away and there’s nothing catching the pieces, your pain isn’t making it easier to put the pieces together. Can you breathe please, I need to hear you breathe, I’m trying to remain calm, I’m breathing for you, but the air is getting heavy, the air is ice cold, and I’m running to save us now, I’m running to keep us warm, stop crying please, I need you, you need you.
Written by Jade Hayek
Written by Jade Hayek
Written by Jade Hayek
Written by Jade Hayek
One day, trust me, some day, you’ll come to the realization of your worth, you’ll learn, and keep learning, that you deserve to put you first, and just like the thirst you have to be loved by somebody, you’ll learn, and keep learning, that somebody lives in your body, she’s been trying to make a home, but you keep leaving her alone, because you think loving someone else harder, better, is going to fix all your floating pieces. But one day, trust me, some day, you’ll come to the realization of your worth, all those days and nights you spent fighting yourself, denying yourself, they were all part of your healing, and you’ll learn, and keep learning, that some people come into your life just to teach you how to let go.
Written by Jade Hayek
Written by Jade Hayek
Help me grow. I am special, so I am not going to settle for less than what I settled for when I knew it was my time to heal, when it was my time to do what i needed to do, to grow apart from you. I am worthy, I know that, I am just learning to show that, I am just learning to let go, just cause you left me, doesn’t mean you kept any of me, or any piece of anything that makes me true. I don’t need you to complete me, I wasn’t born in halves, I am whole, so even if you left, you haven’t kept my heart, you didn’t really have it in the first place. Believe me when I say, anything inconsistent will become non existent, God taught me that from the first day.
Written by Jade Hayek
I can easily choose to ignore you, to close the door on you, to do what I’ve always done and lock up my heart and run away from even having the chance to see that you could be the one. I can easily shut you out, forget about you, move on to the next one until they tell me I’m everything they’ve been dreaming about, and then I can shut them out too, because since dad broke my heart, it seems breaking yours is just the easiest thing to do. I can pretend that I might just like you, or even love you, but who am I kidding, my heart doesn’t lie with men, I fell for a woman once and haven’t gotten up since. I can easily lie to you, tell you my soul was lost and then it found you, but my facial expressions will show you otherwise because I don’t know how to lie about love, let alone fake love, or even bring you into my sacred space, that’s not me, not then and not these days. You can keep knocking on my heart, and my door, telling me to settle or you’ll fall to the floor, but I will tell you easily, if the walls of my heart don’t feel like clouds, and the ceiling of my mind isn’t spotless, you can fall to the floor, but not outside my door.
Written by Jade Hayek
Written by Jade Hayek
I breathed heavily, I asked heavenly, 11:11 I was always on time, 11:11 it was always a sign. I studied myself, I forgot myself, I followed my desire, I stepped into the fire, and it didn’t burn me, it burned what I was not, I learned and then forgot. It was when I forgot that I felt what was inside, that spiritual thing, that thing you can’t define. 11:11 was a love sign, from a far I didn’t know if that feeling inside was a danger sign, but it was just my eyes looking into angel eyes. I forgot about everything that ever hurt me, I forgot about the pain inside. Love has made me go insane sometimes, but it’s the intellectual conversation that made my brain collide with the divine. I was scared, but it sanctified everything in my mind, I breathed heavily, I asked heavenly, 11:11 is my sign.
Jade Hayek 